here we go.
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sometimes i tend to make the wrong impression on people. especially to the ones that i love sometimes i end up making them mad, irritated and hating me. its just that
i know that they don't know my problems
and so they can't understand what i'm going through.

what i'm going through now is... making me mentally unstable
it's hard for me to keep up on what's happening. it really is hurting me badly,
and is making me turn into this scroogy little imbecile...
and i am sorry. i truly am.

i'm not comfortable in sharing these kinds of stuff
with people like you. if i do tell you... the more it'd be hard for me to go through this.
you'd be telling me to stop, and what kind of asshole he is.
but he's not... he's a friend that needs help, and that's what i'm trying to do.
just let me be who i am now and when all this is over i promise i'll be back.
i will be back to my old self and i am sorry if this is hurting you.
i love you so much.

i'm sorry for acting this way but the burden is just too..
its just so new for me... and i don't know how to handle things.
:(

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here we go.

here we go.
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sometimes i tend to make the wrong impression on people. especially to the ones that i love sometimes i end up making them mad, irritated and hating me. its just that
i know that they don't know my problems
and so they can't understand what i'm going through.

what i'm going through now is... making me mentally unstable
it's hard for me to keep up on what's happening. it really is hurting me badly,
and is making me turn into this scroogy little imbecile...
and i am sorry. i truly am.

i'm not comfortable in sharing these kinds of stuff
with people like you. if i do tell you... the more it'd be hard for me to go through this.
you'd be telling me to stop, and what kind of asshole he is.
but he's not... he's a friend that needs help, and that's what i'm trying to do.
just let me be who i am now and when all this is over i promise i'll be back.
i will be back to my old self and i am sorry if this is hurting you.
i love you so much.

i'm sorry for acting this way but the burden is just too..
its just so new for me... and i don't know how to handle things.
:(

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here we go.